Wednesday, February 24, 2010
3rd Freewrite prompt
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Journal Entries From Joshua Tree Winter 2009/2010
Once again I find myself in Joshua Tree. A trip I will have to make myself one day. I am with the ones I love. My best friend Heather, of course. My good friends Sylvia, Tim, Jordan, Chris and Tim's incredible sister Becky. It is much colder here in December and windy. It is warm in my sleeping bag and warm in my soul. I am sick with a cold, I mush be sick to see this place I guess. The wind shakes us. Rattles our post. But we are still. We are strong and still. The wind is healing and embraces you when least expecting. I was drawn here to heal, the wind followed me to rip away, in gusts, my pain. My body is whole. My soul is whole. My own love is the only I need. I love you. I do. Adventurous.
I spent nights waiting
hoping praying
This peace this comfort this brain of waves
we connect. we respect.
And here it is.
I can't help but to debate
I can't help to find
The reason and purpose
For all this noise.
Here it is quiet.
Only music from souls willing to give
Here we are.
Designated perch assembled by God
Deligent in writing
her soul speaks out and flows with the spilled ink.
Chicken scratch if you can manage to read.
A gang full of hoodlums keep her inspired
"How can I contain all this spirit?" She asks
The wind won't take it away.
"I'll write and spew and empty it all out"
Clear sky is full of purpose
so still it whispers to her.
"Tell me your secrets"
"Give me your truths"
"I want for your knowledge"
Silly tunes are played with great influence.
Friends and food.
Lyrics we all know.
The music brings us closer.

First Freewrite Prompt
The Twitter Buzzzz
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Poems as a journaling expression of insomnia
Can’t sleep
My thoughts have taken me away
The past is my present and ever reoccurring dream
You crept your way in, I wonder how you managed
Sultry like the wind, fascinating like the sound
Yet my idle heart still races
I'm anxious; can’t sleep
How long will this day last
My bed cold and cozy
Sheets filled with ice and dread
Sleep waiting for me
Somewhere I cannot meet
The pills and drugs that have lead me once
Now lulling in my blood
My thoughts and wants and lust all mixed
I'm like an accordion of complaints
Restless heart
Ruthless stress
Desire to its undying need
To pleasure myself is a boring occasion
One that has past and went
I searched for a muse so many times before
Found only what I had already used
Now with your eyes inside my thoughts
I can only write these lines
Do they tempt me, do they mock?
Have I found a reason?
I feel no such luck
And for that sickness
Cause I am doomed to sleeplessness
April 18, 2008 1:15am
You sonovabitch
You open the list of my to-dos and show what I have been anticipating.
Fuck! I know that already. I’m gettin’ to it.
You turn the page to a chapter I just forgot because I loved it too much.
God dammit! I hate when it hurts.
You show me the map of the circles I’ve taken.
It’s so scary when you’re lost. I cry out over and over:
Please help me! I am so lost and I cannot find my way.
You tear open my dresser, the top drawer to all my intimacies and lust.
What the fuck are you looking at?
You count the pages and minutes, reporting over and over in my head.
Jesus Christ, I can’t do this.
You bastard, that voice.
You creature, that choice.
You clever little fuck.
How can I reclaim my mind?
You helped me destroy my path, no, cover it in leaves and mess.
I’m trying to clean it up.
You told me to trust you, but it was hard to hear clearly over myself.
How can I have told myself this?
Fuck. Defeat. King me. Check mate. Call it on the bored. I loose this round.
What’s next.
February 11, 2009 12:50am